1 month 4 weeks ago
IRRATIONAL TRUST IN LIFE
I thought it was time to reflect on what the Alignment Process seems to be doing for/to me.
The main change is that I have never before experienced a sense of trust in Life/the Universe/God like I am experiencing now. It seems to go beyond trust , into knowing. I know my life is all right. I know I am on track. I know I am safe. That doesn't mean I don't get wet when it rains and cold when it snows and hungry if I don't eat! But I'm experiencing a sense of "Existential Security" - the opposite of existential anxiety, I suppose!
Such feelings are not logical or rational. But I'm OK with "not-logical". Logical thinking depends on the work of the Conscious Mind. This is a fantastic part of us, and I very much appreciate it, but it can only handle 5-9 pieces of data at once. Whereas our Unconscious Mind has been estimated to be handling about 11 MILLION pieces of data at a time. So which part of us is more likely to have a better handle on what is actually going on?
How many times in the past have you made an obviously logical, sensible decision, only to have something in you screaming NO! DON'T DO IT! DON'T GO THERE! You made the decision anyway and it all turned out disastrously. Some non-logical, non-rational part of you had computed the Bigger Picture using all kinds of data your conscious mind didn't even have access to - the body-language of the people involved, the pheromones they were giving off, the undercurrents in the tones of voice they used, the hidden tensions experienced by touch when you shook their hand, perhaps.
We don't have language to categorize these kinds of impressions easily so we get them as gut feelings, hunches, dreams, inklings, itches we can't scratch. It doesn't mean they are wrong or stupid - simply that they aren't being processed by the part of our brain we feel most comfortable with.
So when, rationally, it's "obvious" that I should be mapping out my life more carefully, paying more attention to long-term goals and coming up with a written long-term plan, but every part of me other than my rational mind is purring with contentment like a cat, waking me from deep restful sleep with optimism, joy and creative inspiration, and healing my body of long-lasting aches and pains, then I'm prepared to believe that on the deep levels of my life, everything is indeed, deeply all right.